Cold

Cold

Brian West

Fully alive and barely awake;
Flipping the switch and turning away
My eyes are sore and my heart still aches; 
Summoning up the courage for another day

Waking up is the hardest part 
The sound of alarm is the lead of my heart
The silence seduces me back towards sleep;
Desire to have you alive comes, so selfishly

I never thought much before
About the value of your support
The knowledge that you would hold me until I cried
I cannot call up these tears
Though I'm surrounded by so many fears
The missing of your laughter leaves me cold, so cold

An image of you in your lasting breath;
Now you are changeless, alive in your death
Healed and forgiven, and deeply transformed,
Soon resurrected, and shortly reborn

Starting with one single second,
I am allowing myself to believe
The hope I have been called to is not in vain
The Spirit is proving, again and again,
Though at times it all seems so slow
My heart and your body will not always be so cold, oh no

Hour of Drowning

Hour of Drowning

Brian West

And I am drifting down the stream in-
to a waterfall, and
I am trapped beneath the froth
Swimming for the surface,
and reaching for the sides, and
I am so afraid that both
are out of reach, and
I am so afraid that both
are out of reach, and
I am so afraid of drowning

Chorus:
This is my fear, this is my cry--
Who will save me in my hour of drowning?
I cannot hear, I cannot see--
Darkness and gravity are all around me
Lord, hear my cry...

Now the crucial moment:
Coming up to breathe is
A fading opportunity
Cross the silent line in-
to the mystery, where
I have no strength left in me
to seek the air, but
Now the peace has overcome
the cold despair, I'm
hearing voices--am I here or there?

CHORUS

BRIDGE
Passed beneath the waters, once, yes,
A birth came from above
But now I am trapped below
Where, under this water, is Your love?

CHORUS

Never Meant

Never Meant

Brian West

All that I thought that I wanted
Was to love someone
And to be loved in return
Now I find I am haunted
By the images
Of how I gave my heart… away

I am holding a razor blade,
Double-edged, within my fist
As the sharpness sinks into my skin,
My arm begins to twitch
Oh, the pain is almost unbearable,
But something's keeping me
From the self-control I must have to let go,
To set me free

Can you feel my pain?
Do you know my sorrow,
What I've given, why I feel so hollow?
Love was never meant to be like this. (x2)

Now the building I'm standing in
Is burning to the ground
Though I'm searching for hope in the heat and the smoke,
I fear none can be found
At a window four stories up,
I see my friends below
I hear their pleas, saying they will catch me
In spite of the flames, I still don't know

Can you feel my pain?
Do you know my sorrow,
What I've given, why I feel so hollow?
Love was never meant to be like this. (x4)

I am holding a razor blade,
Double-edged, within my fist