Doubt

How many times?
How many days to walk this secret mission,
To stumble in the dark, praying for vision?
To strain with every step, trying to listen...

How many times?
How often must my heart suddenly shatter,
To wait for unseen Hands to piece together
This puzzle that no longer seems to matter

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I have a heart full of doubt;
I wish You could see my face
If You were here with me now,
Could You somehow give me faith?
I know You'll tell me the truth,
For we're as close as two brothers:
Are You the Anointed One,
Or are we waiting for Another?

I can try to open up and remember...
Two little boys growing older together
Slowly we learned we'd go down in history:
The holy Lamb of God, and His favorite cousin

CHORUS

How fragile my faith; how precarious my prayers;
How daring my doubt, following my footsteps
Just a breath in front of God

It's been so many years ago--I made a promise to the sky
Shaking my small fist at Him, I never needed so to cry
"You have never left me, never let me get away,
But I have never wanted you to hold me, 'til today."

How fragile my faith; how precarious my prayers;
How daring my doubt, following my footsteps
Just a breath in front of God

I have a feeling my fears have found their feet again;
I'm concerned that there's a coward in control
The devil's able to hide behind his lying friends,
Like a puppeteer I'm letting steer my soul

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But I will fight these fears away, I will be lifted from my grave
To watch these apparitions vanish with the light of day
So please just wait with me and see who God's creating me to be
The love He's planted soon will bloom
Into a harvest of peace

I know the music--the melody I've heard before:
When the panic plays, I dance this sorry jig