Do you care if any of my songs ever get on the radio? Does it matter to you whether or not I ever create professional-quality demos of any of my songs? Will you give me any grief if I just sit on my butt and never write another song, never do anything with the songs I've written, leaving them to collect dust for the rest of my life? Why do I ask, you wonder?

I'm toying with a theory that I am primarily motivated by helping others, doing things that help others do what God has called them to do. That being so, I am not motivated to pursue with any seriousness my musical "career" because it doesn't practically matter to anyone else. Sure, as Danielle pointed out, she's somewhat disappointed that I haven't created any professional-sounding demos, and she's proud of my accomplishments as a songwriter. But on the other hand, she wouldn't think of giving me a guilt trip for not doing more with my music.

Well, I'm not looking for a guilt trip. I'm not sure those do much for me. What I am looking for is evidence that my music actually matters to anyone. So, do you care? Can you give me a deadline, a reason, some kind of consequences that I can connect to my music? Or do you think I'm crazy for thinking about this in this way?

I'm looking forward to your feedback.